13th February 2019
Dear Cooper and Finn,
It's 11.49pm and I just went to put something in your room. I didn't have to do it now, but I wanted to see you breathing. I wanted to watch your chests rise and fall and see the curve of your noses and your little lips sticking out. And now I'm lying in bed trying to make sure I never ever forget this wonderful feeling of sharing a life and a space with you both. And wondering if I appreciate you enough and whether I'm enjoying this enough and whether you're getting the best of me. I'm trying my best. I hope it shows. xxx